....Not Like I Do You.

The orange beam of early light pierces the curtain with intimate thoughts of me,

The daily encounters of chaos, chatter, confusion, frustration are all silenced by the whispers of my heart,

The longing for me is yet to end with the calming of the day,

The joining of two souls extends beyond the conscious mind,

The need is great, it's long, it's deep, it transmutes into physical exigency,

You wouldn't trade it, you couldn't trade it,

Your love for me.

And with the resting of my eyelids and a gentle exhale,

I know these feelings are so warm, so real, so true....but

Who genuinely speaks these words?

Are these your thoughts? Or mines?

Do you feel this feeling?

Or do I simply need you to? Or want you to?

...maybe you do love me ....but clearly

....not like I do you.

Why?

• Why do we ask why, when we usually already know the answer?
  
• Why can't we have the love we want?
  
• Why do we always complain, no matter how good things are?
  
• Why do lovers cheat?
  
• Why do we have to lose before we appreciate?
  
• Why do we do things we know are wrong?
  
• Why does love have to hurt?
  
• Why do good things have to end?

Hmmmm......

something for your mind, your body, and your soul,
it's the power to arouse curiousity,
the Purpose
the goal which one acts on,
a journey of force, hot like the sun and wet like the rain,
rhythmatic movements in unison with others
prolong an act of sensation with no limits or boundaries.
eternity is past
Wrong is right
it's the point of greatest intensity
pleasures of the highest sense,
feelings of warmth and security,
willing and unwilling sensations of the mind,
a condition
the ultimate seduction....
...The Realm

Written by R. D'Agostino, A. Mannino & D. Pino

Note To Self...

Ok, ok I know. I suck. It's been about two weeks now since I've put up a new post. Obviously, I don't have MTB type traffic coming through here :), however when I was inspired to do this, it actually meant something to me. So anyhow, long story short, I've been busy but note to self....I'm back!

Say Word Moment: R Kelly found NOT GUILTY!

TMZ reports,

A jury has found R. Kelly not guilty!

A jury acquitted the singer of all fourteen counts of child pornography.

NO comment for now...

Say Word Moment: Barack & Michelle

I think this photo speaks for itself! Homey-lover-friend. I love these guys! :)

Whoso findeth a wife findeth a good thing......Proverbs 18:22

Life's Lessons: Letting Go

How and when can you be sure when it's time to let go? Mary J said, "how can I love somebody else when I can't love myself enough to know when it's time to let go". It should be pretty obvious, right? But what if it's the case of that dang 80/20 rule? You know the concept, that in a relationship you're only gonna get 80% of what you need and often you leave that 80 thinking you're getting something better, when in fact you end up with just 20! What if it's that"20%" that's leading you astray? But hold up, who's to say that one doesn't NEED that 20.

Imagine this... me enjoying you, you enjoying me. Life is good. Sweet thoughts, sweet messages consume the day. Good days, good nights, good dates, good laughs. Life is good. No strings attached. You mind your business, I mind mines. It's all good....ya dig. Then time sets in ....

Intentions change, wants change, needs change, growth takes hold. What do we do?

Is it unacceptable that intentions have changed? Is it unreasonable that I want more? I've grown and so have my needs. Can you handle that? and Can I handle if you can't? Ummm....

Could you imagine THIS... me loving you, you loving me. Life is good. We become one. We make one. Life is good. I'm the ice in your tea, the seed in your pumpkin(corny I know), the perfect verse over your tight beat....ya dig. Ummm....

So it seems as though a crossroad emerges. Although I'm not a woman of ultimatums I am one of affirmations. Time waits for no one, and he won't wait for me. In the country we say, Mildew or Barbeque.

I can be all that you need me to be. What I can't do is force you to come along with me on this journey.

1 Corinthians 13:11When I was a child, I spake as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child: but when I became a man, I put away childish things.

I'm ready to put away childish things .... are you? If not ....

... is it time to let go?