Think About It: Inspiration

Isn't it funny how the smallest thing or unexpected person can be so inspiring? To be inspired...hmmm...feels good just thinking about it. Life can be so good. Yeah I know, sometimes it doesn't seem that way but it is.

To be inspired is such an experience in itself. It's like sitting on a beach waiting for the sun to set. That immediate emotion you feel as you begin to see the first sign of that fiery orange that seemingly careens against the waters. Your eyes intertwine with the rays, your mind only focused on that very moment, the calmness in your spirit, the freeness of your soul...pure inspiration, right? ......Maybe it's just me ;)

I love it. I love life. And the simplest things inspire me and make me appreciate everything life gives me.

It's like:

...sitting in the park with my daughter and watching her play so freely and innocently,

...the way the wind flows through the grass and gracefully dances with the trees,

...the way your smile reaches out and tickles my heart,

...the way your words speak to an unreachable place in my mind,

...the way a stranger knows me without knowing me.

It's .... loving like you've never been hurt before.

To friends, foe, lovers, strangers....thank you for inspiring me......

Think About It: Purpose

PURPOSE:



Well the Encarta dictionary defines purpose as, the reason for which something exists or for which it has been done or made. Yeah...that seems fitting. However, it has to go a bit deeper than that. Of course, one's purpose is destined from above. But when and how do we make that "on earth..as it is in heaven"? I don't believe some of us are taught to live life purposefully. We are often given a set of instructions that should usually lead us to our "life's purpose". Be good...go to school...go to church...go get some more school...get a good job...get married...have some kids...keep working that good job until you can retire...retire....then die. Dang that sounds really bad when I actually type it word for word. LOL

It has to be more. I know just it. Amazingly, people often say..."oh well you should be satisfied, you've gone to school, you have a good job, you live comfortable...so what's your problem??" My daughter's father once told me, "you're just never satisfied; I'm a simple man so why can't you just be a regular woman who's satisfied with what you have...how much more do you want". WHAT? LOL Yeah needless to say, that's when I knew I was with the wrong man. That's just it..I'm not a regular woman. No offense to regular woman....whatever that is?? :) There's a burning passion within that just want settle with society's definition of completeness. I feel as though I've accomplished so much, but yet so little, all at the same time. I want more, I need more, I owe the world more. ....What is my purpose?

Clearly, right now this can't be it. I've followed the road map, for the most part, and now I find myself at the crossroad. Which way do I go, what way do I turn? Lord do you hear me? How can I not know what to do? Who can I tell? I'm supposed to have it all together? Remember black woman, you're suppose to be strong. Uncertainty reads weakness....right? Could it be I am my worse enemy? ...What is my purpose?

Could it be that the secret whispers that only I can hear are speaking yet I'm not listening? Umm. The question still exists....What is my purpose? What is the reason for which this something exists? .........And thus I ponder. My internal clock ticks. The search continues.....to find purpose, to find fulfillment, to find me.


Philippians 4:6 NIV
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.

Life's Lessons: Am I Asking Too Much??

Am I asking too much, when I need for you to hold me to just to make me feel better
Am I asking too much, when I’m asking for the little things you do to bring me laughter
Am I asking too much, I can’t wait another minute because I am running on empty
When I long for your touch, your touch, your touch, your touch


I think my girl Angie Stone couldn't have said it better......go with me now....


You know life teaches us that we are to accept and embrace it in its fullest. To realize that we are too blessed to be stressed and that in essence, none of us really have anything to complain about, right? Even the Good Book says in whatever state you're in....be content. (Philippians 4:11) Right??

But I'm just saying, at what point can I shamefully admit my degree of unhappiness?? Ok so, immediately one would look at that as a pretty strong statement. To actually admit that you're not as happy as YOU believe you COULD be. However, to me that cuts so much deeper than that. One thing life has profoundly taught me is that before you can place the blame on anyone or thing, you must always look in the mirror first. So wow, what that resonates to me is that....I'm part of the problem...OR all of the problem... Right?

Nah, I wouldn't go that far.LOL But the point to this takes me back to my original question...Am I Asking Too Much?? Better yet...When does a woman ask for too much? (I'm not talking about material things or gold diggers :) Is there an emotional limit to how much a man can give??

I don't believe so. I do believe however, people can only learn to love a certain way, to appreciate certain things and to be true emotional givers through self-inflicted life experiences. A man undoubtedly exbodies manhood when he understands a woman, her needs, her desires, her emotions, her true being. We, well I, need more ... more than a dinner, more than a movie, more than sex, more than clothes, more than shoes, more than trips, more than diamonds. It's the emotional connection, it's the way you love me and I love you. It's on a completely intangible level. It's a feeling, a desire, a need. It's like the necessity of air, water, food. It's the experience of life, love and happiness all wrapped in one. You live it, eat it, sleep it. You feel me.

So when I say I need romance, or intimacy. Don't intertwine that with society's definition of such. There is some, but I need more. Am I asking too much?

Self Help: Love

I am often amazed by our declaration of love for others. Do we really understand the true essence of sharing, giving and being of love? I don't think so. Is it really possible as naturally selfish beings to love unconditional? Sure it's easy to say so but to love whole heartedly when it's not being reciprocated to you. To love when you're being hated. To love when you're being mistreated. To love when you're being neglected. To love those people or things that thirst for your demise. To love after love has proven to wreak havoc in your life. To love the abuser. To love the mental rapist. To love during the struggle of life. Are you with me?

Think of the most wonderful, indulging, peaceful moment of love you've ever experienced...and now can you honestly say that you could fluently give and experience that same love after what I've described above???

I long to be able to answer that question with the quickness...yes! But according to the love described in the Good Book, I know I'm not there yet.

I Corinthians:
4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
8Love never fails ...

13And now these three remain: faith, hope and love.But the greatest of these is love.

Reflection: The Day and Hour Unknown

Matthew 24


36"No one knows about that day or hour, not even the angels in heaven, nor the Son, but only the Father.
37As it was in the days of Noah, so it will be at the coming of the Son of Man.
38For in the days before the flood, people were eating and drinking, marrying and giving in marriage, up to the day Noah entered the ark;
39and they knew nothing about what would happen until the flood came and took them all away. That is how it will be at the coming of the Son of Man.
40Two men will be in the field; one will be taken and the other left.
41Two women will be grinding with a hand mill; one will be taken and the other left.

42"Therefore keep watch, because you do not know on what day your Lord will come.
43But understand this: If the owner of the house had known at what time of night the thief was coming, he would have kept watch and would not have let his house be broken into.
44So you also must be ready, because the Son of Man will come at an hour when you do not expect him.

Say Word Video: 7 yr old Steals Grandma's Whip

Wow, here's another interesting video. However, it has the exact opposite effect of yesterday's post. I can't even bring myself to attempt to summarize this shamefulness, the title says most of it and his responses say so much more... My first reaction was, I would tear his little tail up (in the words of my mother)! However, some bigger questions exist, "Who failed this young child? When did they fail him, he's only 7? AND is it too late? Is he doomed to be yet another statistic of our beautiful, young black men??

I pray not.

Say Word Video: Lil' Mama - L.I.F.E.

I must say I was a little shocked and surprised when I saw this video. For the most part, I never gave Lil' Mama or any of the other new young "rappers" a second thought. However, this is deep, thought-provoking and definitely outside of the norm. So Lil' Mama I tips my hat off to you for your contribution.