I'm refreshed....

Yeah I know. I've been missing for a minute. Aside from just being busy, I just haven't been motivated to write. Not that I'm here writing novels or anything but something has to push my fingers to type or else they want move. Make sense? LOL My birthday is next week and I'm so excited and blessed to have made it through another year. I wouldn't allow myself to list one complaint, even if I kinda wanted to :)

I've heard change is DIVINE in '09. So I can't wait to see what the new year has in store.

Could It Be.....President Barack Obama

I love these guys. Just no words.....

Who are you?

Are you to blame?
Of course not.
Or maybe.
But who are you?

I've never acknowledged your existence,
Never given power to your name.
Never needed you then, or now.
Or maybe I did, or do.
But who are you?

Did your absence in my mind,
flee to your presence in my soul?
Couldn't be.
Or maybe.
But who are you?

How can I miss what I never had?
How could you dismiss the essence of you?
I couldn't care.
Or maybe.
But who are you?

Strong and independent is the only being I know.
Past failures are mines, not yours.
But what if....what if you created this botch.
Could you admit that?
Would I accept that?
But who are you?

No memories of you.
Only the ones I made up in my dreams.
The woman in me want allow me to go back.
There's nothing left to fix.
He did what you were never man enough to do.

So on I go....
No hate for you, only love,
but why daddy,
do I ask....
Who are you?

Sometimes

Sometimes in life, you don't get second chances.

Sometimes in love, you lose.

Sometimes, sorry isn't enough.

Sometimes, realization comes a little too late.

Sometimes, joy ends in pain.

Sometimes, forgiving doesn't mean forgetting.

Sometimes, time isn't on your side.

Sometimes, if loving you is wrong...I DO wanna be right.

Sometimes, love loves conditionally.

Sometimes, love doesn't have anything to do with it.

Sometimes, you don't miss the wind until it fails to soothe your soul.

Sometimes, love can love you and leave you.

Sometimes, a hurricane is the only way to wash away the pain.

Sometimes, like this time, it can't be undone...

Sometimes, just sometimes... it is the door closer.

And sometimes, the some time is the now time.

Think About It: Hurt

How can you understand hurt when you've never experienced it yourself? To me some things can ONLY be taught (or learned) through self experience. Point blank...no in between, no exceptions. First let's define hurt. We're not talking about getting your feelings hurt or being disappointed. We're talking about real hurt, real pain, real heartbreak. Humm, heartbreak....go with me for a moment.

Heartbreak is waking up, to only realize you never went to sleep. Heartbreak is when you literally feel pain aching through your chest, you can't eat and you can't think. Heartbreak is a lonely place with only you in it, it's dark and it's cold. There are blankets in this room but you don't have the strength to reach them. Desolate.... There's nothing or no one to console you. Minutes turn into hours, days into months and still no relief in sight. What have I ever done so bad to deserve this, you wonder? Heartbreak I tell you...is the place where tears run empty. If what I describe is unfamiliar to you, then rest assure you've never experienced hurt and surely you've never confronted heartbreak.

And the funny thing is, there is good that comes from heartbreak that makes it soooo worth it. Now one would question how the heck anything good could come from pain and heartbreak. You would think that from the heartbreak I describe a permanent vessel of scorn would be born. Maybe in some unfortunate cases that might be true but for most, not. You never fully understand what giving is until something has been taken from you. Make sense? LOL

How could that be?

I can only explain it the way I've come to know it. You live life so carefree, you love so careless, you live without living. Then one day life slaps you dead in the face and when you're able to cope, overcome and move forward you never, ever look at life the same. I now appreciate life and people. I'm now aware of how my actions affect others and most importantly, hurt has taught me how to love unselfishly, with thought and with consideration. I would never want to cause anyone the pain that was caused to me. Hurt ironically brings out our most conscious, enlightened, amorous being.

Hurt...it's life's gift to us.

Say Word Video: "Our" US of A

I often wonder about those who claim to be "Christians" and to love God. I don't know of a Jesus of hate and division. I often wonder if people read. Because the Jesus I read about is of love and peace. Love, the most misconstrued word there is. I really wish people knew and genuinely understood the true meaning of that word. You know, I really want to be angry about the same ignorant mentality that exists today, and to be honest I somewhat am. But I'm more sad and disappointed. Yet, there is still peace within. I will never take my eye off the prize. I will never allow the hatred of others to force me to spew the same. Despite the bad, there is good. Despite hate, there is love. Despite darkness, there is sunshine. I love life and all that it brings. And instead of focusing on the bad things I can't change, I will focus on the things I can change. It's easy to say what should or shouldn't be, but ask yourself what are you doing to make things better? If you don't have an answer, you may just be one of the ones making it worse??? Ya dig.

Video: Just for Laughs!

SNL - VP Debate

Hummm...What??

Katie Couric: Why isn't it better, Gov. Palin, to spend $700 billion helping middle-class families who are struggling with health care, housing, gas and groceries; allow them to spend more and put more money into the economy instead of helping these big financial institutions that played a role in creating this mess?

Gov. Sarah Palin: That's why I say I, like every American I'm speaking with, we're ill about this position that we have been put in where it is the taxpayers looking to bail out. But ultimately, what the bailout does is help those who are concerned about the health-care reform that is needed to help shore up our economy, helping the -- it's got to be all about job creation, too, shoring up our economy and putting it back on the right track. So health-care reform and reducing taxes and reining in spending has got to accompany tax reductions and tax relief for Americans. And trade, we've got to see trade as opportunity, not as a competitive, scary thing. But one in five jobs being created in the trade sector today, we've got to look at that as more opportunity. All those things under the umbrella of job creation. This bailout is a part of that.

AND just for fun....

Couric: You've said, quote, "John McCain will reform the way Wall Street does business." Other than supporting stricter regulations of Fannie Mae and Freddie Mac two years ago, can you give us any more example of his leading the charge for more oversight?

Palin: I think that the example that you just cited, with his warnings two years ago about Fannie and Freddie - that, that's paramount. That's more than a heck of a lot of other senators and representatives did for us.

Couric: But he's been in Congress for 26 years. He's been chairman of the powerful Commerce Committee. And he has almost always sided with less regulation, not more.

Palin: He's also known as the maverick though, taking shots from his own party, and certainly taking shots from the other party. Trying to get people to understand what he's been talking about - the need to reform government.

Couric: But can you give me any other concrete examples? Because I know you've said Barack Obama is a lot of talk and no action. Can you give me any other examples in his 26 years of John McCain truly taking a stand on this?

Palin: I can give you examples of things that John McCain has done, that has shown his foresight, his pragmatism, and his leadership abilities. And that is what America needs today.

Couric: I'm just going to ask you one more time - not to belabor the point. Specific examples in his 26 years of pushing for more regulation.

Palin: I'll try to find you some and I'll bring them to you. WHAT????


(Source, CNN)
(Source, CBSNews)

Video: ---"Mrs. Maverick"

It's Monday, the bailout failed (not that I'm suggesting it shouldn't have), the Dow is down 600 points, and I don't know about you but I need a good laugh... No description needed!!

I'm Tired

Yeah I know. I've been MIA for a couple of weeks. Well what can I say. I just haven't been motivated to write anything. First off, let me say I in no way consider myself to be a "writer" but for me I have to feel like writing. And for some reason my fingers haven't been able to translate the chaos cluttering my brain waves. I'm just tired... mentally.

I'm a fixer, that's what I do. From professional to personal, I study, analyze, formalute solutions, execute test and voila....I fix things! So I have problems when I'm confronted with something, that I may not be able fix. Truth is I'm not sure if I even what to be a fixer anymore. I just wonder what happens between the point where you want to fix and the point where you don't want to fix. Dang, what happens? The more I think I'm wiser, the more I see I'm still a young dummy. LOL Better than an old fool, I guess.

I've never been a person to quit, but I'm tired. Not one ounce of fight left in me, not one grain of motivation in sight....even the reservoir is on E. What do you do when you see, what you thought was your future, go right down the drain? And surprisingly a part of you doesn't even care. Man, when you've given until there's nothing left to give...when your cries of despair have fallen upon deaf ears...when you saw the storm coming. What now?

I'm tired. And I just wonder where the fight comes from in other relationships that seem to stand the test of time. Who said fight anyway? Maybe it just wasn't meant to be. Or maybe it was and we were just meant to regret things later. Who knows. How can 80% be on point but the dreaded 20% stand so strong? Who the heck said 20% was insignificant anyway?? Too many questions, but yet no answers. Whatever, I'm pretty sure none of this will make sense tomorrow :)......I'm going to bed.


You Who Never Spoke Your Feelings, So Many Times I Tried To Tell You, That You Were Losing Me, But You Never Tried To Make Things Better, You Didnt Choose To See My Pain, Now I've Got One Thing Left To Say, It Was You

Say Word Video: Meet the MAVERICK!

Sorry...

• ...being a woman is not enuff
• ...being a hottie want cut it
• ...being a grandmother mother with a special needs child is not a plausible platform

Let's take a moment to highlight some of Mrs. Palin's fine words:

• Pray for our military men and women who are striving to do what is right. Also, for this country, that our leaders, our national leaders, are sending [U.S. soldiers] out on a task that is from God. That’s what we have to make sure that we’re praying for, that there is a plan and that that plan is God’s plan. WHAT?! How dare you try and pimp my Jesus!

How about March 2007,

• I haven’t really focused much on the war in Iraq. I heard on the news about the new deployments, and while I support our president, Condoleezza Rice and the administration, I want to know that we have an exit plan in place. Oh really, huh?

OR

• Palin told graduating students of the church's School of Ministry, "What I need to do is strike a deal with you guys." As they preached the love of Jesus throughout Alaska, she said, she'd work to implement God's will from the governor's office, including creating jobs by building a pipeline to bring North Slope natural gas to North American markets.
  "God's will has to be done in unifying people and companies to get that gas line built, so pray for that," she said. God's will, huh?

SORRY.... you can't pee on my head and tell me it's raining.
*eyes rolling*

AND just to tickle my insides.....Say Word Video below:

Well I'll be ...........

Boy, oh boy the Republicans are mighty clever. Why am I not surprised that Alaska Gov. Sarah Palin was just name new VP candidate for the Republican ticket. Ahh the trickery. So here you go to all of you die hard feminist who were two steps away from falling into a mental seizure if you dared entertain the thought of voting for Barack Obama. I swear is it that hard to open your mind for just a moment. Forget black, white, man or woman...stimulate your mind people.

Anyway just put on your seat belts because the ride has just begun......

Stay tune for more frivolity from the Republicans and more witless thinking from our great American people..... I love it and you better believe THEY love it!

*peace, love and green hairgrease*

Say Word Video: Kids, Crack Kills Brain Cells!!

This don't make no dang-gone sense. And to think I use to love these guys. Peep (1:50 mark)how they look at this fool like, oh well he aiight. You know the same way you look at your Uncle Pete when he falls out at the cookout..."yeah there he goes again" LOL

Who is this place?

Who is this place?
The place that calms my spirit, the place that makes my internal radiance shimmer.
Who, not what, is this place?
A place that's so far away, yet connects precisely to one intellectual crux.
A place that takes me to so many places, all while never leaving.
Who is this place?
That sparks my ignition of passion, the place that inspires my thought-provoked being.
How dare this place, come into my place! ;)
*crickets chirp* ..... silence
*water drops* ..... silence
Peace looms, release finds escape, exhale shatters its cage
Who is this place, that holds such harmonious calms of pleasantry?
How can this place be so homey, when I don't even know it?
Unknown but familiar, untouched but tangible, new but finely aged.
Out reaches the hand of this place to me.
The warming waters of this place bubbles between my toes.
The accompanying winds wraps itself tightly around my psyche.
I like it.
So for now I don't know whence comes this place.
It has no return address, no expiration date, not even a stamp.
Only a cascade of purities addressed only to me.
Welcome, I hope you stay for a while....

Note To Self: Breaking Through

The sun yet rises again and I find myself trapped behind this wall.
From Monday to Friday, from January to December, from 8-5pm it holds me captive.
It tells me this is where I belong, it tells me I have no where else to go.
Day by day by day, this wall squeezes me tighter and tighter
It's suffocating me yet it feeds me
My veins are bulging, my heart is racing, my voice yells silently
What do I do? Where do I go? Who do I tell?
Toughen up, they say. Be content. How dare you complain.
A tight wall is better than no wall, we all have to do it, ok.
Nah, it's not ok. Maybe you can't see the forest for the trees, but I can see the sky above the forest.
There's more, it has to be.
There's a purpose that I can't fight. It hangs on my side everyday.
Why are you hiding? What are you afraid of?
Who could have ever imagined that one's passion could run so deep.
Who would have known that the path to the soul was infinite.
Don't ignore the whispers. No not the noise but the whispers, the sweet melodies of ardor.
I do know why the caged birds sing.
The life and latency of the bird was never meant to be held in bondage.
So this being true, what now?
But when, but how, but what about.....
Today is here, another day is only hoping to be tomorrow.
There's a wall that needs breaking through.....missrook its on you.

You must not know...the Black Man's Sorrow

Uneducated, uninspired, unloving is what you'd lead me to believe
Woman hater, unproductive, born and breeded criminal is what you'd swear to be true
From birth you've casted away, disregarded and stripped his spirit of all germane.
Set up to knock down,
Giving to, to only take away,
All love, joy, hope, perseverance diminishes by your watch.
Excuses I give, you say? Oppression you give, I say.
Do you know what I know, I say? Do you care to know, you say?
So you must not know, I say ....

Well let me just introduce you to him.
He's a grandfather, a father, an uncle, a brother, a son
He's the backbone of a family and the love of one's heart
He's the first one to rise and the last one to rest
He works day in and day out with no advancement in sight
He carries his load, unfairly as it is, but yet no complaints you hear
See he knows his path is different, he understands the rules to this game
The same, is what he wants
The same humanly respect
The same quality education for his son
The same pay for having to work twice as hard
Do you know?
Do you know the load he carries?
Do you know his feeling of disappointment and failure?
Do you know how you continue to grease his slope to success?
Do you know his anger? his resentment?
Do you know he's still expected to smile, although you've given him a permanent frown?
When does it get better, he ask? When can I feel like a man?

Gaze deep into his eyes, search long within his soul
Wipe the fog from your glasses and you'll see
Amongst the charcoal filled insides, there lies a light.
A light that beams so bright and warm.
It's so shiny and radiant, it almost pierces your eyes.
Yet you can't turn away.
Calmness can be found within the light,
Happiness, satisfaction, wholeness all radiate in the light.
If you tilt your head and listen real closely,
the light hums a song of proclamation.
A song of fulfillment, a song of love.
But suddenly the light is gone ...You've appeared.
In an instance, he has awaken to life.
So again I ask, do you know??

Nahh, you must not know...the Black Man's Sorrow.

Note to Self: Procrastination is .....

Procrastination is a mugg.
Why do I procrastinate?
Help me, sweet Jesus!!

What should I be doing RIGHT now?

• Washing dishes....I did get the water going, put the nice bubbles in, but......
• Finishing a paper....I said I would do it last night but......
• Tackling the file of papers sitting to my left.....eh...
• Completing the remaining things on my to-do list for today.....I am for real in 30 mins....
• Writing a to-do list for tomorrow to remind me of things I didn't do today.....maybe later....

Note to self: get yo' ish together!

Self to note: I am for real-real.

Tick-Tock

Tick-tock, tick-tock,

The end is near.

The clock is speaking,

Can you hear it?

His finger so gently strokes my locks,

The gentleness of his lips on my cheek,

The smiles of two meet simultaneously as one.

All darkness is overtaken by the bright narrowing light emerging upon the two.

The moment.

Love, happiness, blithe.

But what happened to ....

And what about ....

All is forgotten,

In the moment.

Tick-tock, tick-tock

The end is near.

The clock is speaking,

Can you hear it?

Suddenly anxiety arrives.

The bright light seems to dim.

Those fingers become so rigidly uninviting,

Those lips approach mysteriously.

The one smile of two is irretrievably broken.

The moment is no more.

Tick-tock, tick-tock

The clock is speaking,

Can you hear it?

The end is near.

The end is here.

....Not Like I Do You.

The orange beam of early light pierces the curtain with intimate thoughts of me,

The daily encounters of chaos, chatter, confusion, frustration are all silenced by the whispers of my heart,

The longing for me is yet to end with the calming of the day,

The joining of two souls extends beyond the conscious mind,

The need is great, it's long, it's deep, it transmutes into physical exigency,

You wouldn't trade it, you couldn't trade it,

Your love for me.

And with the resting of my eyelids and a gentle exhale,

I know these feelings are so warm, so real, so true....but

Who genuinely speaks these words?

Are these your thoughts? Or mines?

Do you feel this feeling?

Or do I simply need you to? Or want you to?

...maybe you do love me ....but clearly

....not like I do you.

Why?

• Why do we ask why, when we usually already know the answer?
  
• Why can't we have the love we want?
  
• Why do we always complain, no matter how good things are?
  
• Why do lovers cheat?
  
• Why do we have to lose before we appreciate?
  
• Why do we do things we know are wrong?
  
• Why does love have to hurt?
  
• Why do good things have to end?

Hmmmm......

something for your mind, your body, and your soul,
it's the power to arouse curiousity,
the Purpose
the goal which one acts on,
a journey of force, hot like the sun and wet like the rain,
rhythmatic movements in unison with others
prolong an act of sensation with no limits or boundaries.
eternity is past
Wrong is right
it's the point of greatest intensity
pleasures of the highest sense,
feelings of warmth and security,
willing and unwilling sensations of the mind,
a condition
the ultimate seduction....
...The Realm

Written by R. D'Agostino, A. Mannino & D. Pino

Note To Self...

Ok, ok I know. I suck. It's been about two weeks now since I've put up a new post. Obviously, I don't have MTB type traffic coming through here :), however when I was inspired to do this, it actually meant something to me. So anyhow, long story short, I've been busy but note to self....I'm back!

Say Word Moment: R Kelly found NOT GUILTY!

TMZ reports,

A jury has found R. Kelly not guilty!

A jury acquitted the singer of all fourteen counts of child pornography.

NO comment for now...

Say Word Moment: Barack & Michelle

I think this photo speaks for itself! Homey-lover-friend. I love these guys! :)

Whoso findeth a wife findeth a good thing......Proverbs 18:22

Life's Lessons: Letting Go

How and when can you be sure when it's time to let go? Mary J said, "how can I love somebody else when I can't love myself enough to know when it's time to let go". It should be pretty obvious, right? But what if it's the case of that dang 80/20 rule? You know the concept, that in a relationship you're only gonna get 80% of what you need and often you leave that 80 thinking you're getting something better, when in fact you end up with just 20! What if it's that"20%" that's leading you astray? But hold up, who's to say that one doesn't NEED that 20.

Imagine this... me enjoying you, you enjoying me. Life is good. Sweet thoughts, sweet messages consume the day. Good days, good nights, good dates, good laughs. Life is good. No strings attached. You mind your business, I mind mines. It's all good....ya dig. Then time sets in ....

Intentions change, wants change, needs change, growth takes hold. What do we do?

Is it unacceptable that intentions have changed? Is it unreasonable that I want more? I've grown and so have my needs. Can you handle that? and Can I handle if you can't? Ummm....

Could you imagine THIS... me loving you, you loving me. Life is good. We become one. We make one. Life is good. I'm the ice in your tea, the seed in your pumpkin(corny I know), the perfect verse over your tight beat....ya dig. Ummm....

So it seems as though a crossroad emerges. Although I'm not a woman of ultimatums I am one of affirmations. Time waits for no one, and he won't wait for me. In the country we say, Mildew or Barbeque.

I can be all that you need me to be. What I can't do is force you to come along with me on this journey.

1 Corinthians 13:11When I was a child, I spake as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child: but when I became a man, I put away childish things.

I'm ready to put away childish things .... are you? If not ....

... is it time to let go?

Think About It: Inspiration

Isn't it funny how the smallest thing or unexpected person can be so inspiring? To be inspired...hmmm...feels good just thinking about it. Life can be so good. Yeah I know, sometimes it doesn't seem that way but it is.

To be inspired is such an experience in itself. It's like sitting on a beach waiting for the sun to set. That immediate emotion you feel as you begin to see the first sign of that fiery orange that seemingly careens against the waters. Your eyes intertwine with the rays, your mind only focused on that very moment, the calmness in your spirit, the freeness of your soul...pure inspiration, right? ......Maybe it's just me ;)

I love it. I love life. And the simplest things inspire me and make me appreciate everything life gives me.

It's like:

...sitting in the park with my daughter and watching her play so freely and innocently,

...the way the wind flows through the grass and gracefully dances with the trees,

...the way your smile reaches out and tickles my heart,

...the way your words speak to an unreachable place in my mind,

...the way a stranger knows me without knowing me.

It's .... loving like you've never been hurt before.

To friends, foe, lovers, strangers....thank you for inspiring me......

Think About It: Purpose

PURPOSE:



Well the Encarta dictionary defines purpose as, the reason for which something exists or for which it has been done or made. Yeah...that seems fitting. However, it has to go a bit deeper than that. Of course, one's purpose is destined from above. But when and how do we make that "on earth..as it is in heaven"? I don't believe some of us are taught to live life purposefully. We are often given a set of instructions that should usually lead us to our "life's purpose". Be good...go to school...go to church...go get some more school...get a good job...get married...have some kids...keep working that good job until you can retire...retire....then die. Dang that sounds really bad when I actually type it word for word. LOL

It has to be more. I know just it. Amazingly, people often say..."oh well you should be satisfied, you've gone to school, you have a good job, you live comfortable...so what's your problem??" My daughter's father once told me, "you're just never satisfied; I'm a simple man so why can't you just be a regular woman who's satisfied with what you have...how much more do you want". WHAT? LOL Yeah needless to say, that's when I knew I was with the wrong man. That's just it..I'm not a regular woman. No offense to regular woman....whatever that is?? :) There's a burning passion within that just want settle with society's definition of completeness. I feel as though I've accomplished so much, but yet so little, all at the same time. I want more, I need more, I owe the world more. ....What is my purpose?

Clearly, right now this can't be it. I've followed the road map, for the most part, and now I find myself at the crossroad. Which way do I go, what way do I turn? Lord do you hear me? How can I not know what to do? Who can I tell? I'm supposed to have it all together? Remember black woman, you're suppose to be strong. Uncertainty reads weakness....right? Could it be I am my worse enemy? ...What is my purpose?

Could it be that the secret whispers that only I can hear are speaking yet I'm not listening? Umm. The question still exists....What is my purpose? What is the reason for which this something exists? .........And thus I ponder. My internal clock ticks. The search continues.....to find purpose, to find fulfillment, to find me.


Philippians 4:6 NIV
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.

Life's Lessons: Am I Asking Too Much??

Am I asking too much, when I need for you to hold me to just to make me feel better
Am I asking too much, when I’m asking for the little things you do to bring me laughter
Am I asking too much, I can’t wait another minute because I am running on empty
When I long for your touch, your touch, your touch, your touch


I think my girl Angie Stone couldn't have said it better......go with me now....


You know life teaches us that we are to accept and embrace it in its fullest. To realize that we are too blessed to be stressed and that in essence, none of us really have anything to complain about, right? Even the Good Book says in whatever state you're in....be content. (Philippians 4:11) Right??

But I'm just saying, at what point can I shamefully admit my degree of unhappiness?? Ok so, immediately one would look at that as a pretty strong statement. To actually admit that you're not as happy as YOU believe you COULD be. However, to me that cuts so much deeper than that. One thing life has profoundly taught me is that before you can place the blame on anyone or thing, you must always look in the mirror first. So wow, what that resonates to me is that....I'm part of the problem...OR all of the problem... Right?

Nah, I wouldn't go that far.LOL But the point to this takes me back to my original question...Am I Asking Too Much?? Better yet...When does a woman ask for too much? (I'm not talking about material things or gold diggers :) Is there an emotional limit to how much a man can give??

I don't believe so. I do believe however, people can only learn to love a certain way, to appreciate certain things and to be true emotional givers through self-inflicted life experiences. A man undoubtedly exbodies manhood when he understands a woman, her needs, her desires, her emotions, her true being. We, well I, need more ... more than a dinner, more than a movie, more than sex, more than clothes, more than shoes, more than trips, more than diamonds. It's the emotional connection, it's the way you love me and I love you. It's on a completely intangible level. It's a feeling, a desire, a need. It's like the necessity of air, water, food. It's the experience of life, love and happiness all wrapped in one. You live it, eat it, sleep it. You feel me.

So when I say I need romance, or intimacy. Don't intertwine that with society's definition of such. There is some, but I need more. Am I asking too much?

Self Help: Love

I am often amazed by our declaration of love for others. Do we really understand the true essence of sharing, giving and being of love? I don't think so. Is it really possible as naturally selfish beings to love unconditional? Sure it's easy to say so but to love whole heartedly when it's not being reciprocated to you. To love when you're being hated. To love when you're being mistreated. To love when you're being neglected. To love those people or things that thirst for your demise. To love after love has proven to wreak havoc in your life. To love the abuser. To love the mental rapist. To love during the struggle of life. Are you with me?

Think of the most wonderful, indulging, peaceful moment of love you've ever experienced...and now can you honestly say that you could fluently give and experience that same love after what I've described above???

I long to be able to answer that question with the quickness...yes! But according to the love described in the Good Book, I know I'm not there yet.

I Corinthians:
4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
8Love never fails ...

13And now these three remain: faith, hope and love.But the greatest of these is love.

Reflection: The Day and Hour Unknown

Matthew 24


36"No one knows about that day or hour, not even the angels in heaven, nor the Son, but only the Father.
37As it was in the days of Noah, so it will be at the coming of the Son of Man.
38For in the days before the flood, people were eating and drinking, marrying and giving in marriage, up to the day Noah entered the ark;
39and they knew nothing about what would happen until the flood came and took them all away. That is how it will be at the coming of the Son of Man.
40Two men will be in the field; one will be taken and the other left.
41Two women will be grinding with a hand mill; one will be taken and the other left.

42"Therefore keep watch, because you do not know on what day your Lord will come.
43But understand this: If the owner of the house had known at what time of night the thief was coming, he would have kept watch and would not have let his house be broken into.
44So you also must be ready, because the Son of Man will come at an hour when you do not expect him.

Say Word Video: 7 yr old Steals Grandma's Whip

Wow, here's another interesting video. However, it has the exact opposite effect of yesterday's post. I can't even bring myself to attempt to summarize this shamefulness, the title says most of it and his responses say so much more... My first reaction was, I would tear his little tail up (in the words of my mother)! However, some bigger questions exist, "Who failed this young child? When did they fail him, he's only 7? AND is it too late? Is he doomed to be yet another statistic of our beautiful, young black men??

I pray not.

Say Word Video: Lil' Mama - L.I.F.E.

I must say I was a little shocked and surprised when I saw this video. For the most part, I never gave Lil' Mama or any of the other new young "rappers" a second thought. However, this is deep, thought-provoking and definitely outside of the norm. So Lil' Mama I tips my hat off to you for your contribution.

WOW...I iz here!

Well, well. I have finally joined the Blog world. I think the title and definition above speaks for itself. Honestly I'm not sure what direction this blog is going to take. I do however feel as though, through person experience and growth, I have ten cents to offer.

I will attempt to examine and clarify my unique being...woMAN. Yes, I put emphasis on MAN. Yeah, yeah ladies I know. This is the millenium, we are independent, we don't need a man, blah, blah, blah. Sorry not here. My time of male bashing is over (I'll let you be the judge of that LOL). Ladies, as Katt Williams put it, if you are 25 years old or older and you are still saying "all men ain't sh*t", you may want to find out what it is about your p***y that attracts ain't sh*t n*gg*s!!! 2 funny!!! Don't get it twisted though. I have been dogged out...more than once! Yet my focus for where I am in life right now is....accountability.

So again, who knows what I will have to say and when I'll want to say it...but stay tuned!

P.S. Shout out to Don for the blog inspiration :)